I have decided to write a weekly diary of our time through the Coronavirus pandemic. To keep for the future. It’s such an unprecedented time and full of so many mixed feelings and events we have never encountered before it is hard to process it all.
This past week has seen a consistent rise in new coronavirus cases. Until recently, the hospitalisation cases and ventilator cases and the deaths haven’t been too bad, but they are now consistently rising too.
I have said many times in my weekly updates, that the challenge now really is a mental health one. Waiting for new restrictions to come into place, wondering what they will be. Will be able to see our loved ones, or only through a video screen. The fact they can change so fast and you have absolutely no control over them at all.
We have things booked for the next week. I am hoping to go shopping and meet my Mum for lunch on Friday, we have Go Ape booked on Saturday for Logan’s birthday and haircuts booked too. But I am not letting myself look forward to them, because I just do not know if they will happen. We just don’t know what will change and when.
It’s odd really this unable to plan things, when it’s usually a time of year when lots of plans are being put into your diary. It feels flat and a bit endless is the best way I can describe it and I feel submerged in domesticity. Without out all of the usual escapes and activities.
I won’t lie and say there haven’t been some tears this week. The sense of overwhelm and uncertainty. At times it feels claustrophobic. You just don’t realise how important socialising with people is, making plans, going places is to your life until it is taken away from you.
We have had some nice moments this week. The children started a gym class which is part of a blog review which they absolutely loved. And it was great to see them thriving and doing something so active and normal. A blogging conference which I love to go to was obviously cancelled at the moment, ran online on Saturday. It wasn’t the same and I missed the networking and chatting with friends, but it was nice to do something different and learn some new things.
The new 3 tier system has been announced since I started writing this and it isn’t actually as bad as I thought it would be. Where we are things pretty much stay as they are which is good, but I really feel for people up north who have much tighter measures. So hopefully I can look forward to doing some nice things this week after all. Seeing my Mum and Logan’s birthday. Although it still is in the back of my mind that that could change at any moment. I will try and take things as they come and to be grateful that we are all well.